Monday, October 18, 2010

i miss the 'old me'

i used to put all my faith in god; now i have faith in myself and little in the people are me. i used to be against drugs, smoking and drinking; now i smoke everyday, drinking every few weekends and smoke dope a few times a week. i used to want to save myself for marriage; now i've slept with 5 people. i used to go to church at least once a week; now i only ever pray when i am desperate. although i no longer live my life according to the waythe bible has told me to, i still trust and believe in the lord. i know he is still looking after me, but i miss him. i want to be close to him, i want a better relationship with god. but my life holds me back sometimes; i'm out every weekend and sometimes school nights too. i don't remember the last time i went a weekend without having a cone or a drink, without thinking about having a sesh or getting drunk. i don't remember what it's like to be innocent anymore. i miss who i used to be, i miss who i was before you, before you broke me.

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