you need me and i know it, and i feel completely horrible i haven't been there for you enough, in-fact i haven't been there at all recently. i've known about how hurt you are, but i was too busy sorting out my own shit to be there for you. and i'm so fucking angry at myself that i haven't been there for you, i wasn't there when you needed to get fucked up, you needed to drink and smoke to take away the pain. i should have been there for you, i should have been holding you, wiping away your tears and getting fucked up with you. i should have been there to make you laugh, to make you smile, and help you forget. it should have been me, your best friend. i'm sorry i haven't been there, i miss you.