you ruined me, but i still fucking care. you treated me like a dog, but i still fucking care. you are with someone in spite of me and my relationship. you come in and mess up my life even more, as though you didn't do enough damage. you twist the story and manipulate peoples minds. you drink, smoke, snort as much as you can. you use people, and make them think you care about them. but you don't, and you never will. you only care about yourself, and you don't give a flying fuck how your actions and words affect other people. you bitch and complain about your life even though everything is handed to you on a silver platter. you make me fucking sick to my stomach, and i want you to be put through pain. but i still fucking care. what the fuck is wrong with me? i want to hate you.