i blame myself because i introduced you back into this life, not knowing what the future would hold for your life. but now i know, and i'm angry at myself every day for doing this to you. you might be able to shrug it off, but i can't, and that's what is scaring me the most, the fact that you seem like you no longer care what happens to your body, or your mind. but i still care. believe it or not, your going off the rails. and i hate it.