Monday, April 11, 2011
you said all the right things.
"hey how are you lately? we need to catch up sometime to talk about getting your fines wiped?" "don't worry, they're already sorted. i got community service. two more full days and they are wiped" "oh wow that's great! did you still want your restricted paid for?" "sure. but don't think that changes anything." "i know i just want to help out as much as possible. i know you don't like me but i don't have a problem with you so i just wanna lend a hand." "sorry but you haven't helped my life in the past. i gave you enough chances. why try buy my friendship? you don't have a problem with me because i've never done anything to you" "if this is about kane then i understand but i want you to know that i always stuck up for you cause he was being unfair to you and thats not fair. he's being a bit of a knob lately. we barely talk" "yeah ben told me. yeah but neither of you ever tried to understand why i didn't want you to hang out or do anything about it even though you knew i didn't like it. i don't talk to him either." "yeah i understand i feel the same way about ben and other girls :/ i'm sorry i didn't respect what you wanted as much as you would have wanted. our friendship meant a lot to me and i'm sorry that i pretty much screwed it up." "yeah it meant a lot to me when we were friends but you hurt me way too many times for me to ever be bale to forgive you again." "the thing is mara i honestly didn't realise i was hurting you that much :( tbh i thought you were over reacting but now i see where i went wrong :/ i would like to make it up to you some how if you let me. maybe a coffee sometime, my shout? you name it and i'll try make it happen. i'm sorry. i really am . you have been through so much hurt in your life and you didn't need me adding to it." "no i didn't that's why i didn't want you in my life anymore. there isn't anything you can buy to make up for what you did to me. exactly jorgi, you know quite a bit of what ive been through and you made it worse, you were meant to be one of my best friends but you proved that wrong. don't worry about it okay, i'm fine. i don't need anything in my life that could cause pain or drama. which is what you've done over and over and over again." "there is nothing i could do to hurt you again. and i swear on my life i would never hurt you again. i will let you punch me in the face if i do lol. i want our friendship back mara.. i'm not gonna lie.. i miss you :/ please give me one last chance. last one." "if i really wanted to punch you in the face i would have already but i wouldn't wanna risk anymore charges on my name for you anyways. wouldn't be worth it, plus my hand is already broken. i don't think i can do that aye i promised myself i wouldn't let you back into my life and i'm sure you could probably find a way to hurt me again. i mean i didn't think you would hurt me after brett." "you have a broken hand?! what happened?! no i will not hurt you again. let me prove it to you. i promise mara. i honestly just wanna be able to hang out with you again :/ and if you punched me i wouldn't charge you cause i'd probably deserve it if i hurt you again." "if you understood you'd know you deserve it. you would know you deserve it but i wont do it anyways. promises don't mean much coming from you, so don't bother with that. i can't do that to myself again jorgi, i can't let myself be hurt by someone again. i just sat by and watched it happen last time." "well i have learnt a hell of a lot over the last few months and i would be honored if you would let me back into your life. let me make this promise to you. cause i will keep it." "please mara! i miiiiiiiissssss you :/" "why" "because you helped me a lot when i needed someone and i just miss you!" "that's what friends do, but we aren't friends anymore. you did this, now you need to live with your consequences of your actions, sorry. ha." "why wont you give me one last chance? please? let me pick you up after i finish work and we'll go do something please?" "i'm working tonight anyways. so i can't. i already gave you five last chances." "i can't have been five. please just let me prove it to you mara." "no not exactly five but with kane and interfering with my life, relationship and my own business; i gave you enough last chances. i can't think of one good reason to give you another last chance. so tell me why i should talk to you at all." "because you're a caring person and you want to be the best you can be and you are already freaking amazing and you secretly want to forgive me cause you know how sorry i an and how awesome i can be when i'm being a good friend. and i want to be better :) please you beautiful human being." (didn't text back for an hour) "okay, i've been thinking about this a lot and although i don't like you and i doubt there is anything you can say to change my mind about you; i finish work at 8 if you wanna pick me up, have a quick chat and drop me off? saves me bussing" "sounds good :) this means a lot to me." "it's oay i guess. this doesn't mean i'm going to forgive you or be your friend, so don't get your hopes up. i just wanna hear what you have to say for yourself. i'll see you at 8." "okay, that's all i ask. :)"